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Thursday, February 26, 2009
what's happening to me??..what's wrong with me??...am i pushing myself in getting what i want??..or am i pushing u??..so many questions...so little answers...is it me who is causing all diz to happen??..can somebody juz pinch me ...??..i need help here..Yana, Nora, Wati, Yan...anybody???..help me please...am i the cause of this??..am i that stupid??..WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??..TO: YANA & NORA
Yana & Nora...if you're reading this...help me...i know u guyz know what i'm going through..its not mas...its me..i didnt realise till monday...how am i suppose to pull through..among the 3 of us..i'm the patience one...so why am i like diz??..i need you guyz right now...family...i can't think of anyone but the both of u...its been the longest time since we sit down & update with our lives..i got so many things to update the both of you..Some are good & definitely some are bad...we're family..but its been a long time since we hang out..my treat u guyz..u can't push me away..
TO: BABY
My love, with alot going on...i can pull through...its not you...its me...as much as i love you honey..i really dun want it to affect you as well..you n i both know..i swear to b, its not u..its really not you...if i've hurt you i'm really sorry..all those situations, i actually understand why u did that too...seriously b, i'm very2 proud u sign on..seriously i do...its a stable job..but the overseas trip...i'm slowly swallowing it dear...please be patient with me..i'm sorry about the engagement thingy...believe me..i'm very2 sorry...In the phone, when we talk, i'm doin my very best not to show you how i really feel..but deep down i know u can tell..we've gone through so much in this relationship...dont let this bring you down & i wont let myself down..i promise you...all this we end very2 soon..like i've said, i'm very2 sorry if i have offend you..i guess one of us is ready n the other is not..but dun worry..it doesnt change anything..we're still here..together..it bring me even more joy to know at the end..it still me u love dear..its still me..u have no idea how painful it was to hurt u that badly..but u should no also that you've hurt me too syg...it was even worse than me..but you know that i'll still love you..its silly to argue over such small things..u've made me cry not just once...countless times..u know i have always been patient with you..very very patient..i'll plead if i can not to argue with you...its heart breaking..i dun tell you this over the phone or even in msgs cos i'm afraid of you getting mad..every time u scream, i'm being very timid not to talk..crying in the dark n all..i'll forgive n forget..but if u keep repeating it every single time.....i dun even know what to say..u'll know i'll close one eye for you...maybe i cant understand how tired you are when ur working because at the very end of the day, u work is still worst than mine..but baby, i'm working too..everyday....sometimes how many weekends have we sacrificed?...alot syg....alot...but i dun complain that much..cos again i stick to ur decision...i'm sorry that u need ur life too to live...the thought of losing you scares me..its scares me so much tau b...sometimes i sendiri tak tau whether i did anything wrong if you dun msg or dun call me at all..take for example the last 2 weeks..i was like a crazy little gal b..everytime i said no more nonsense, u still do it...nowadays i'm not surprise..u want attention i've given it all..concern..i've given that too...care...i've given that too...love...i've given that every single day...what more do you want...everything is there infront of you..are you blind or u choose not to see it??..i cant be angry with you..u urself know that..every single time we argue..its always the same old thing...u're sick of it..i'm sick of it too syg..love stories u say...b, love stories or fairy tales..it doesnt matter..its reality..this is us..this is how we are..its reality..no fairy tales...no love stories...our relationship is a story to tell..maybe not now..but in the future perhaps..i've reminded you that so many times..every single day..look at what we've gone through..through good times n bad..we're still together..yesh ur not good at expressing urself with words..but i understand it through body language...syg, just bare in mind..i'm here for u..everyday...
sorry ppl...i'm too emotional too blog...i'll stop for now..
.....its get deeper n deeper everyday..
sPiCy cHiPs & sKy jUicE
Monday, February 23, 2009
THIS TIME I'M REALLY BORED...SO I JUST DID DIZ..HAHAHA!!!1. Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
- well..i cant imagine how many times i've cried infornt of him..its endless..tears of joy, pain & laughter as well
2. Ready for kids?
- actually i am...waiting for him to just ask the magic question..i'll say yesh..haha..but i think i'll wait for 2 years to have our very first child...or maybe after 5 years..i need to know how it feels to be a devoted wifey..haha
3. If you had to choose to be an animal, which one would you be?
- i really dunno..a fox maybe
4. Are you ready for 2009?
- its already 2009...it think i was ready all along...i'm just anticipating for 2010.
5. Are you an independent person?
- yup..always been man...
6. How's your sister?
-i dun have any idea..cos i dun have one...but i'm sure it'll be fun to have one.
7. Last myspace message was from?
- i don't owe any myspace..
8. Are you a good babysitter?
- well acutally..i am..haha...
9. Ever thrown up in a car?
- yup..once
10. Been furious with a friend?
- of course la..sometimes it hurt so much i really cry
11. What color shirt are you wearing?
- pink shirt...black pants
12. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends list?
- hell yeah..i would kish dyan, wati, & all my gf..(dun think wrongly ehk baby..smooching of lips will only be for u syg!!!...hahaha)
13. How many people on your top friends list do you know in real life?
- actually alot
14. If you're sleeping and someone calls you what do you say?
- if its my bf i'll entertain but if not i'll let it ring..hahaha!!!..sorry guyz
15. Hows your heart right now?
- its juz beating faster..haha
16. What are you listening to?
- "i hate this part by pussycat dolls"
17. Is anyone overprotective over you?
- yesh...my dad & mum...
18. What are you wearing on your feet?
- i'm flip flops
19. Who was the last friend you rode in a car with?
- hmm.....cant recall but i know tonight i'm following azhari to hospital..so he's the recent one..ahaha..
20. Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
- actually.yeah...i was jobless for a month if i'm not wrong..i had to depent on baby..ahaha!!!
21. Do you know anyone whose name starts with a Z?
- yeash i do...zafirah
22. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
- 3 months ago..i want to keep long hair for baby's sake...
23. Is your phone close to you?
- very2 close
24. Do you hate anyone?
- oh..well...is it a crime if i say i did....i do actually..someone in particular...ehk baby!!..cant stand her.!!!
Roti KiRaI & BeEf CuRrY
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Dear Baby,1) I apologise for over reacting for something so small.
2) It was your fault i reacted like that. (haha)
3) Don't do that anymore b
4) referred to No.3, u'll still do it again...(i know u will)
5) I'll still love you despite you stupid little actions my love (haha)
Today's topic: HYPOCRITES!!!!
Ya, i know...crazy, juicy litle topic...Well, what does it really mean??...in my very own dictionary..it means....well.... "person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belief his or her public statements."..in other words, A TWO FACED PERSON!!!...I know i have enough of this nonsense..only hubby knows who am i talking about...to think you would actually say the things we wanna hear but in the end you did the opposite...hmm..so very dissapointed in you..u didnt just do it to me..but disappointin mas as well..wow...a round of applause..u really fooled us huh...to think that mas really dont care its fine with me..then i will not be involved in the situation also..but hey all those times you were down, wow...u really did make us feel for u...i have nothing else to say la ehk...
...Being Stubborn, I Know..
Sky JuICe OnlY
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
As promised, i have uploaded his birthday present in the making as well as the final product...enjoy guys....VERDICT: HE LOVES IT!!!...WEEEE!!!
WholeMeal Bread & Sky Juice
Sunday, February 15, 2009
FRIDAY THE 13TH
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY LOVE!!!
I know ur gonna love the present i'm giving you. I didnt get the chance to give you my present. Slightly different from last year..hehe..but still as creative as possible...Thanks to wati & yana for helping me out with it..hehe!!..i'm sorry you didnt get the chance to book out to even spent time with ur family & me..I do have the pictures of his gift..i cant upload now..I'll do it tomorrow..ahaha!!...it's bloody nice la..i'm very glad that i did it k..especially for u my love..
i love you baby..so2 much...haiz words really cant describe how happy i am with you my love..my crazy little boy...I'm glad its still me my love..no one else..
....He Needs Me More Than I Do..
KaTsU bEnTo & IcE MiLo
Monday, February 2, 2009
Yesterday was fun. We went to Sim Lim to find speakers for my computer at hm. Dad finally got us a broadband connection. After so many years of using telephone line connection. I think Maxonline gave use 12 months free usage. So in the end we don't need to pay the Internet for the next year..ahahaha!!!.. best nye!!!..i loike!!!...haha..started to download alot of things already..especially anti virus & adobe..Yesterday was the first time i heard from baby that he had to stay hm & eat as a family. Awww....that's sweet..his whole family was at hm including the big brother. So yeah.. Went to sim lim to shop for speakers..its bloody cheap la for a pair of speakers. I think we went round sim lim for 1 1/2 hrs just to survey around. We wanted survey for laptops...hmm...the smaller it is, the compact it is..We saw a toshiba pink laptop..It was BEAUTIFUL..I told boifey to wait for IT Roadshow..all the laptops were affordable. After we bought the speakers, we went to have dinner @ the food court but his mummy pack for me food. "Lemak Chili Padi Ayam & Sambal Udang & Kentang".....Yummy!!!..He bought a Japanese rice set to share also..ahaha!!!.
After we ate, he brought me over to SUNGAI ROAD where all the old stuff are..there were a lot of ppl. i still cannot believe you would bring me to a place like that b... ITS NOT FUN, ITS FUNNY K!!...hehe!!!..
I decided to sent baby back to camp. We took a bus to clementi. the whole journey we were like sleeping la..haha!!!..nak mkn time kate kan..hahaha!!!..when i woke up, we were already in IKEA @ bukit merah..after a while boifey was hungry again...Haiyo!!!!...so we went to eat fish ball noodles @ Clementi...Kesian..Lapar ehk???..hehe..anyway it was already 2052hrs by that time. We straight away sat @ a park. chit chat & sent him straight to camp. hehehehehehehehe!!!!...i was smiling the whole entire time...thank you baby!!!..ahahaha!!!...
....I Love You Honey Love