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WhErE ArE We nOw??
Saturday, August 9, 2008
everything seems so wrong nowadays. I haven't been communicating with him for a week now. It seems like everything is going down the drain slowly. Everyone has been given me adv tt i shouldn;t let my guard down. Some is even saying, he loves you, he just dunno how to express it. I can't expect for him to say something i wanna hear. Cos everything from his mouth is the truth. I need him to know i would go to the very extend just to make him happy. U know what i did yesterday rite dear, it was sincerely out of love. I'm a fighter..I'll never give up on something tt very important to me in my lie. Like FAMILY, FRIENDS & TRULY BLOOD COUSINS. My future in laws are being very nice to me. Both of them are giving me so much support. They are saying to me that hey Life in NS is not easy. Bullshit if he doesn't think of me while he's in camp. i don't believe. He may say that he doesn't mish me but i know for a fact he does deep down. Baby, out of 5 days u only reply me once that shows you still care. I dun believe u say u dun love me.BULLSHIT!!!..UR LYING!!!...Everyday after work is u i think bout all the time.For most of the time i didn't get to talk or see you, i went straight hm, sleep in the wee hours & got o work first thing in the morning again. Everything is just going wrong. We've reach our target to be with each other this far, dun let it go down the drain. I decided to stay till 4am juz for u. If tat really doesn't show how much i love u, then i sincerely dunno what else to say. Everthing bout u and me is simply simple. Ur not romantic, u dun show how u feel. I'm so use to ur attitude then when u try to be romantic, i very KAKU...cos i'm not use to it. I'll never give up on someone so simple as u. Baby, ur the leader in this relationship, u dun expect me to play the bigger role in this relationship rite??...I know ur in ns but hey i still make time for u...every single time we have is gold..u have 16 months more to go..that's very fast..I'll still be here to support u in everything u do cos that's what GF do..They support their man. I didn't open an account for nothing. I didn't do the things i did juz for show. its out of love and not SYMPATHY!!..u don't deserve sympathy..cos u know how to takecare of urself..I know u have faith in me. I know u believe i can takecare of myself. Someone make me open my eyes yesterday..A friend told me tt i was actually a independent gal...i do what i think is right. baby, ni bukan i nak ungkit, who rescue u went u were really hungry in camp???...i was on my way back from werk it was 2200hrs!!..i was already near my blk going hm till u actually sms say "b, beli makn hantar sini leh"..i actually said no at first but when i think back, "OMG!!!...MY BOIFEY IS REALLY HUNGRY!!!..SICK & TIRED OF CAMP FOOD..I WAS WEAK IN THE KNEES WHEN U ACTUALLY SAY THAT U WERE HUNGRY. I WENT THE EXTRA MILE TO SENT U FOOD DEAR.FROM SIMEI TO MAJU CAMP(CLEMENTI) THEN BACK TO SIMEI IN THE SAME CAB...!!!..Ppl call me crazy for doing such thing s for someone i love so much..so now u tell me, am i being unreasonable???..i tak mengira tau syg..ape yg tak cukup???..baby, u ckp ngan i u nak PSP..i told u to wait till ur birthday...but in the end u receive it before ur birthday tau...baby, u wanted hp...i gave u my spare phone & even let u buy a new one just for camp..baby, u wanted shoes...i couldn't bare to see u going back to ns without shoes..we went to look for ur shoes..i agree to pay..cos my BF deserve everything in the world.Baby, men has approach me to say tt they wanted to get to know me not because how physical i look but my inner beauty...SHIT!!!!..That's crap...which man dun want their GF or wives to be pretty???!!!..But look at u...u accept me the way i am..that's why ur special..every single bit..u made me the woman i am today by not giving face to other guys who are "BUAYAS"!!!..U trust me to takecare of myself.I only have to accept the fact that this is u..& i love u for the way u are...When i was really in crisis, u were the one who really stand by me..make promises that u will always have my back..baby 2016???..remember???...ur words i took it very seriously that shows how serious u are with me...U dun say it but some how u have already learn how to show it....it makes me really proud i can depend on a man like u..it goes tos how my heart does belong to you. Everytime we talk bout our pass its always haunting us. I knwo ur always looking forward to meet me every single saturday or worst even sunday..so u can just imagine how happy & looking forward i am just to meet u when it comes to friday.Ppl say i apmper u with gifts & money...i spoiled u..but they're rigth cos i strictly believe tt u deserve the best. even if i were to loose u..i know for a fact this heart of mine belong to u.. i'll fight for whatever i think its right..i'm a GEMINI...There's two sides of me.. u do knw that rite..ur the only one who knows how to really get through me.i'll always love u my baby boy..KiNKy cHoMeL
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